My excuse

Not that I need an excuse to not have blogged in a while but I have not been feeling well lately. About a week after Adelyn was born I noticed I still wasn't feeling well, not able to sit or walk without pain. Called the Dr and was put on medicine for hemorrhoids for a week. When I started feeling worse I made an appt and was told I had developed an infection in the tear from my third degree laceration from delivering a 9 lb baby posterior with forceps. He put me on oral antibiotics and told me to come back in a week. I didn't make it 5 days before I was back in horrible pain. The oral antibiotics weren't working so they admitted me to the hospital for IV antibiotics for 3 straight days. Scott and Adelyn were able to stay with me so I could continue to breastfeed her, which is possibly the only thing that kept me sane. I was then released after 3 days and put on 2 rounds of oral antibiotics in hopes the abscess would get better. It didn't. Surgery was scheduled for 2 days later in which things too complicated to explain on this blog were done :) I was told I would start to feel better after a day or two and it is 5 days later and still can't walk or sit without a LOT of pain. So headed back to the Dr this afternoon.
The hardest thing about all of this (other than the mental exhaustion that comes from being in constant pain) is the fact that I haven't been able to take care of my children like I would like to. I have had to have someone here with me 24/7 because I can't bend over, sit down, pick them up, walk well or go up and down stairs without a lot of bleeding or pain. That is what is killing me. That is not to say that I am not eternally grateful for all the help I have received from grandmas, grandpas, friends, and other family members. I owe them my life for caring for my children. Lastly, where would I be without my amazing husband who has yet to complain about the fact that he not only has to take care of 3 kids by himself, but also has to work, clean, do laundry and dishes and take care of me.
Praying harder then I have ever prayed that I get good news today. I need to hear something positive to stay sane.